The Hell?!

Jeez, I was doing so much better only one year ago. What happened to me?

Anyway, the other night I walked past some chubby girls lying on a bench and a partially-constructed brick wall, listening to Christian rock music and singing out loud. While walking I also remebered I like how the big roaches of the campus seem to purposely walk in front of your feet instead of going another way.

I feel like absolutely everything is pointless- and I don't care if that's a paradox or not- shut up. I want to learn but I'm tired of suffering for pointless things. REALLY TIRED.

I try not to start every sentence with "I," to keep things fresh. Something is wrong with me- I haven't dieted for months. I don't go outside much. I'm skipping out of doing work at the yard because everytime I go I get rashes and bug bites on my arms and legs. It's just too depressing. What the hell is wrong with me?!?!