It only takes 4 muscles to flip the bird

Holidays make me so damned sore I can't leave my apartment without being negative of the tiniest thing. I burned something today in a ritualistic, mad glee. My family is too damn normal, they stifle me!

Also, from One Minute Writer:
Write about an argument you had with someone you loved, and how it affected your relationship.

I like to argue. I am stubborn, logical, passionate, and analytical to the point of cynicism, bitterness, and even loneliness. My tactics vary for every person as I become their devil's (and heaven's) advocate. Countless times I have domineered over someone with my debate, even if my own beliefs were not presented truthfully. Even if I flat-out lied. I try not to do this anymore, as it is a destructive (and rather masculine)form of abuse if used improperly. It seems the important people in my life recognize this as a strength, where I have learned that strength doesn't need to be reflected only with anger. As I have grown and healed some of that cynical, boyish devil in me, I see a friend of mine harboring this black view of the world and sabotaging his happiness.

Two friends of mine recently broke off their 7 month-ish relationship, mostly due to my cynical and moody guy friend's idiocy. I feel like I can impart something to him, to enforce that it is so much better on the other side of hate and bitterness, and that if he really needs someone on that darker side I can be there with him for a brief time.

However, I may be using this as an opportunity to fit back into my familiar skin. While this may seem like a typical friend problem, this stubborn guy makes a mood his lifelong principle, even if he knows it changes with the winds. Damn, he is an idiot! If only he realized that his major malfunction is that he just doesn't know that most women are the "grey" and most men are "black and white" in their stances! He doesn't seem to understand the compatible nature of female and male, for he feels his cynical and bleak nature is too rough for his girl- who is actually pretty damn cynical and bleak herself!

Anyway, there's more to it all. I can't impart any of my thoughts to him until he returns, so I guess my debate exercise will have to wait.