The New Year (so far)

This year has started with a sucker-punch. In nearly all areas of my life I have dealt with the stress, loneliness, bitterness, anger, and injustice of the failing systems of all social and practical spheres. Families dividing, friendships breaking, finances dwindling, jobs disappearing, energy dissipating, beliefs crushed, lack of self-control, and to top it off: GRUDGES have filled my days since the end of my fall semester.

Ok, so the positive light is a bit dimmed. What are the things that are consistent?

1. Evan and me
2. Mom and me
3. A form of income
4. Funding for tuition (after some hiccups)
5. Social exercises

Well now, it's not so bad then! I'm still attending classes, which is the major point in staying in this damned town anyway, and I still have people I can call to hang out with (though that list is getting shorter). I try to give people something in return for favors or acts of kindness, like presents or help with cleaning or moving their stuff. Those are things I can do to help someone out, right? I don't have to feel bad for eating their food if they offer it, right? If I'm stressed out I don't have to sulk alone all the time, right?

My drawing and reading could be more frequent, even if I think it is poorly done. All I've got to do is keep doing something.