Tarot Misinterpretation

This past fall I practiced some tarot divination, and after some bumbling around I put it on hiatus. I pondered questions like, "Is college right for me?" and "Will I get through this?" or "Will Evan and I stay together?", and throughout all the responses I kept getting negative messages of death, despair, miscarriage, fighting, unpreparedness, and etc.

Many of the cards can be taken as negative in certain situations or it may only include some connotation that makes sense only to the reader, so I let slide some of the unanswerable "variables" that came out. One message plainly came as "losing support of a motherly figure," or rather "a supportive female will no longer be available." This I figured to be either my own mom or my future mother-in-law, which made little sense to me at the time. Occasionally I got cards (especially when I did a reading for this future mother-in-law) that represented a domineering husband or man-of-the-house, which I related to my own father but which also seemed to represent this woman's own husband. I should have concentrated more on the matter even though whatever happened was likely to happen regardless of my intuition.

Not to go into detail, but this loss of a supportive female figure has occurred after an inevitable conflict. Afterwards, this being the new year of 2009, I finally did another reading. With the memory of these past revelations (that I could not have heeded with any more wisdom had I known the exact details), I found that this outcome was the reason I kept getting the Death card- a necessary "evil," an inevitable end to a volatile and uncomfortable relationship. I always assumed this card represented my college ambition or the relationship with my own family, as the Christmas break was soon upon me and I usually fret about the holidays anyway. What I should have realized were the warning signs of this real downfall instead of the imagined problems I make for myself during the season. Granted, it was very insightful, but I should know by now that the cards can and will represent more in layers than I may assume.

What happened has happened, I know that for sure, yet the tarot readings were vastly incomplete. I obviously have more studying to do.